WTF Wednesdays- High time we stop being low

Undulating emotions.
Highs and lows, but mostly lows.
Its a heady explosion of ego and despair.
Self importance, less indulgence.
I cannot justify, cannot explain.
It only gets better, but now this very second its really not.
Reality closes in for that solitary moment and I wonder.
All human beings are not lonely creatures, we long to be together.
So why can we be surrounded by faces and never really see any detail?

Somber Sundays- Forgetting My Lines

If life is all one big play which we never quite grasp the plot of, then I would receive terrible reviews for my constantly having to glance at the script. Maybe I need to stop trying to "wing it" and actually rehearse for a change, but running everything through a filter just seems artificial and canned to me. I like to believe that what I say and do will always be genuine if I just blurt it out without contemplating the consequences.

Or maybe being impulsive just means I'm always gonna do or say the wrong thing....

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Somber Sundays- Lets take a walk outside..

I can't put a lot of stock into other people these days, and that's ok. I've spent the majority of my "adult" life as half of a whole, never quite able to be myself and without ever really discovering who I am. Though it was a hard couple of years after the split with Miss Mamma it eventually leveled out and, much to my surprise, I began to like the guy I had become.

Now that I am finally comfortable with myself the first instinct was to find someone to share it with...though this task it seems is much more difficult and honestly not entirely necessary. Now that I no longer need validation having a "relationship" isn't that huge a priority. Having good friends is more than enough to satisfy me right now and, hey, if a wonderful person does happen to stumble into my corner of the universe and does not immediately bounce out than why not.

All I am saying is that being a whole person, and being happy with who the person is, can be enough.

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