Somber Sundays- Into that bright blinding light

"Im not crying, just got some awesome music stuck in my eyes"-Writer unknown

Everything's going to be alright, you will get through this, dont be lonely. My inner monologue is not always an emo bitch but there are times when I wonder how much progress I have even made. If in fact I have put any of the pieces back together at all or I am just lying to myself to get by. I am not codependent, at least not anymore than the rest of the planet, but being alone is not how I wish to spend my days and evenings. People and things just seem so far away...like postcards sent from across a vast sea of turbulent waves and blood thirsty sharks. I want to put myself out there, swim across that ocean of chance, find out if there might be someone on the opposite shore who wants to share the journey. But I cant. Or maybe I wont.

I walked my bike down Main Street yesterday during one of the many city events, the random people walking by me said hello and I smiled ever so slightly. I saw every kind of person coupled up with a partner, hands locked together laughing at whatever it is people in love talk about. All I could think is how when I turn and point out a strange person or random thing there is no one to smile and acknowledge that, yes, they see it too and think it is equally humorous and odd. I want that. The feeling of togetherness.

Be it near or far, the possibilities are there but I grow impatient, I dont want to wait. Ive waited long enough now I think. So what am I to do?

"Who's gonna watch me die"

EDITORS NOTE: Not all my posts are this depressing I swear.

Outline

Welcome to my randomness folks. My name is Blakely and this Blog is meant to describe and record how I see the world. My views may not be correct or even make all that much sense but will(hopefully) entertain. Everyday will fall into a specific subject and vary from funny to serious in content but always original. This is my starting format but not necessarily final and I might even take suggestions in the future.

Minecraft Mondays- stories from my minecraft adventures
Tasty Tuesdays- Food related stories and recipes
WTF Wednesdays- random craziness from life and the universe
Thankful Thursdays- Odd things I am thankful for
Fiction Fridays- my random short stories
Synopsis Saturdays- Reviews on various things I enjoy
Somber Sundays- introspective musings on my life

So there it is. I will post everyday according to this format (for now) and I urge you to return and comment on my posts.

Blakely

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