I'm thankful on this day for many things. I am thankful for my overall health, I am thankful for a stable job, but most of all at this very moment I am thankful for my sanity.
Its a funny thing to be thankful of some might say but obviously those folks have never experienced a true mental "breakdown", the losing of ones self as they know it for reasons that are never quite clear, even after clarity is attained(or the illusion of it in any case). Though I definitely still encounter moments when I feel like things are not quite OK I have not questioned my mental health in a long time.
Not being sure of yourself is one of the true pains in life, no one ever wants to doubt themselves yet many walk through this world constantly unsure of the decisions and emotions they experience. It goes even deeper when you realize the physical manifestations of these doubt are so all inclusive that you can literally make yourself ill with negative feelings. This is something I have come to realize all too late and have only recently started to understand. A negative attitude begets a negative metabolism and vice versa, striking the balance between these too mechanisms in your body is key to a happy life.
So even though I have not always paid close enough attention to both aspects of my body, the emotional and physical aspects, its never too late to bring them both up to speed. I am physically happy with my body and I am trying my best to keep it healthy and in running order, and I am also emotionally stable in a way that I most likely have never been. I know what I want from life and who I want to be, even if there are some that might want to keep doubt in my mind due to their own insecurities and issues.
So here's to the future, may it be bright and shiny and full of fluffy pandas and may I never doubt my self worth again.
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