WTF Wednesday- Modes and Moods

I like to think I am fairly sound of mind, I mean in comparison to those with serious mental illness and such I am pretty darn regular. I grew up with a mother that had major chemical imbalances and supplemented that with drugs and alcohol so I know at least a little about mental instability. Lately, though, I have wondered about my own personal moodiness and whether that is regular or possibly related to my family medical history. Primo example is that I have spent large chunks of the last year going up and down on a depressive roller-coaster ride while I watch others simply float through life and never bat an eyeball at drama and the like. I was pretty down about things a few weeks ago and now I am happy as a clam at the bottom of the ocean on no-clam-catching-day. So I find myself wondering how long this little high will last or if it is in fact a permanent change in attitude towards life.

I must admit that things are finally going my way, which brings up another question: Are things in my life getting better because of this new attitude or is my new attitude the product of life finally throwing me a bone? I know this circle of questioning could go round and round forever but it seriously perplexes me about the nature of chance, environment, and how the mind creates its own joy/misery.

So maybe I shouldn't worry about it, maybe I should just enjoy the twists and turns that life has to offer without question. After all if I sit and analyze why things are going well too closely I might miss out on all the great things and people that are passing by. Perhaps instead I should just reach out and grab hold of the good things, be myself and refuse to let go...